On Sunday, I turned 29 years old.
Today, I sit on a deck overlooking the wide open mountain vistas of Colorado drinking handmade herbal tea with a close girlfriend...on a Tuesday. This week, we’ll hang in the hammock, meditate in the teepee, and bathe in the hot springs under the starlit sky all in between spurts of productivity as we both play the role of CEO in our businesses and our lives.
10 months ago this very moment, I was at my desk - bleary eyed - overlooking the city of San Francisco fielding emails, leading meetings, and giving performance reviews.
How did I get here? To a place where I am living a more mindful, playful, adventurous life?
I dance with fear.
Fear is a real thing. You probably know this already - how fear can paralyze you. Stop you in your tracks and make you feel that doing that one thing equals death. But there's actually some truth to that.
In my efforts to study how the brain works, I’ve learned a lot about the brain stem, or the critter brain. This was the first part of our brain that developed as primates, and it translates nearly every interaction or thought we have with a fight, flight, or freeze response. This critter brain’s main concern is making sure you stay alive and safe. So when my email inbox was overflowing or I had a crazy deadline approaching, I would usually get this panicked feeling throughout my entire body. That was my critter brain translating the onslaught of email and the approaching deadline as DANGER! and triggered my sympathetic nervous system into panic mode. Adrenaline pumped through my body and my digestive system shut down.
All my brain wanted is for me to be safe.
Fear is very real - for our bodies and our minds.
There is no such thing as fearlessness.
Fear will always exist for you, in some way. It’s whether you choose to let it stop you that dictates your actions.
I dance with fear.
Because the more you acknowledge the fear but also keep moving, you push your edge forward just a little bit more.
Over the past 10 months, I have been more consistently scared than I’ve ever been in my entire life.
And when I think back on all the most significant moments in my life, they are all moments when I danced with fear and pushed my edge:
- Auditioning for the high school musical
- Going to college on the other side of the country without knowing anyone
- Kissing Tim on the 2nd date
- Drinking my first green juice
- Starting The Dabblist and posting it on Facebook
- Hosting my first live workshop last January
- Deciding to become a coach
- Putting on my first webinar last month.
The more I think about it, this list goes on and on because I’m realizing the more I dance with fear, the more I conquer it.
I often tell people that even if you’re shaking, don’t let that stop you. Yes, nerves happen. But they can happen while you are moving through them. Flex that muscle, gently push those boundaries, and dance with the fear. It's worth it.
This concoction is part all-purpose cleaner/part air freshener. Because you are using fresh herbs, it's good for only 1-2 days, but it's worth it to use the power of fresh herbs to clean and freshen up your space. It contains white vinegar - a common base for non-toxic cleaners. Tim isn't a huge fan of the smell of vinegar, so I find adding in fresh herbs helps mask the smell.
I've used fresh sage and tarragon in this spray, but I highly encourage experimenting with other herbs you have in your garden (or, in my case, my herbs pots on my back deck). Sage is super anti-bacterial and cleansing, while tarragon is anti-microbial.
Sage & Tarragon Cleaning Spray
- 1 part hot water
- 1 part white vinegar
- 1/2 part witch hazel (or vodka)
- 1 drop castile soap (or non-toxic dish soap)
- Fresh sage + tarragon (but any words will do, dear dabblist!)
- Spray bottle (preferably glass)
Place the fresh herbs at the bottom of the spray bottle and muddle them down with the stick-end of a wooden spoon or use a chopstick. Be sure to really smash up the herbs to they begin to release their oils and aroma. Then add in the rest of the ingredients, screw on the nozzle, and shake before using.
Remember: If you let the mixture sit for more than a few days, the herbs will start to look and smell a little funky.
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